What Paul says in Philippians 3:13-14 makes a big impression on me, "one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."
We can't really move forward, physically or spiritually if we are constantly looking behind us.
But, I've definitely been guilty of doing just that- holding on to the past, with all of its heartache and what-might-have-beens / what-should-have beens, etc.
I've been the one hiding out from life and all of the new exciting opportunities / friends in front of me.
Because I was flat out scared out of my wits of opening myself up and getting hurt all over again.
Scared of moving on to the next chapter of my life!
Circumstances far outside of my control spun my world off its axis and turned my life upside down. It took me awhile to figure out how to handle things. Well, I'm STILL trying to figure out how to handle things.
But, I'm a lot more at peace with my situation.
I have plans, hopes and dreams that have been reignited and seem to grow bigger every day.
I'm starting to remember who I am for the first time in a long time.
And, I'm not scared anymore.
I don't have to have all of the answers right now or even understand everything, I just have to trust.
My eyes are fixed squarely in front of me and I'm starting to see the beauty of God's greater plan.
I now have my heart wide open and am starting to put myself out there for who I am, whether people like me and accept me or not, because God loves and accepts me and that's all that matters.
I'm ready to live again, to embrace life exactly the way it is in all its imperfect craziness.
I know there will continue to be bumps and scrapes along the way.
I am absolutely sure that I will at some point, maybe even today, fall down and get hurt. But, I'm OK with that. :)
Life is beautiful and the sunshine of a new day is warm and inviting!
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